We begin in the middle of things, conversations already underway, decisions postponed, memories rising unbidden, plans reaching out into days that have not yet arrived. Before we fully arrive in a moment, the moment is already crowded with what came before and what might come after. In the space of a single morning we become citizens of a dozen worlds, private histories, public outrage, quiet griefs, small joys. We are asked to be instantly responsive, thoroughly informed, endlessly productive, unfailingly compassionate, original, tireless, and somehow calm and accepting of it all. The task is impossible, and everyone is attempting it.
Beneath all this seemingly unending surface activity lives a more intimate kind of weather. Perhaps you know it; perhaps you feel it: a background ache, a sense that life is almost arriving. Almost settled, almost clear, almost enough. We build routines and identities around that almost. We promise ourselves a later. Later, we will finally rest, when the inbox is empty, the body behaves, the work is done, the relationship resolves, the planet recovers; later, when we have learned enough, earned enough, explained enough, understood enough. Enough.
This book suggests something gentler, and something perhaps stranger: that the rest we seek is not waiting for us later; that what we are looking for is where we are looking from. The invitation is not toward withdrawal from life, but toward a remembering, within life, of the quiet, inherently peaceful openness that has never been absent, and never could be: The Heart of Stillness.
Why begin here, now
There is nothing new about Stillness. What is new is the intensity of our forgetting. Our age multiplies signals. We are told to manage our minds as we manage our calendars, to optimise attention as if the heart were a dashboard. We are asked to be precise about everything but the presupposition at the root of it all: what is this life, and what am I within it? Practical answers seem to abound at every turn: improve sleep, output, mood, the self that must carry all of this. Practicality has its place. But if the sense of lack at the core of a life is only reorganised, not understood, every improvement becomes nothing more than a shinier treadmill.
I have written this volume, and the two that follow, to pause that treadmill, not by breaking it, but by stepping beside it long enough to notice the ground on which it runs. We need language for that ground that is precise, accessible, and warm; faithful to timeless insight and hospitable to modern ears. We need a way of seeing that is not a technique, a clarity that is not cold, a simplicity that does not condescend.
What is The Heart of Stillness?
Whenever you hear a sound, whether a bird calling outside or a message arriving on your phone, something knows it. Before the thought bird or the meaning of the message, there is simple, bare knowing. That knowing is not noisy. It does not lean forward or strain. It is not a special state achieved by effort. It is simply the openness by which anything and everything appears: the seeing in which sights arise, the listening in which sounds are heard, the space in which sensations and thoughts come and go.
I refer to this openness as The Heart of Stillness.
Heart because it is intimate, felt, warm, closer even than breath.
Stillness because it is unshaken by whatever moves within it.
The Heart of Stillness is not opposed to sound or motion; it is their unalterable condition. It is not a trance but the most ordinary awareness, unadorned. It belongs to no single tradition yet is recognised in all of them. It is not elsewhere. If you search for it, you will seem to miss it; if you stop, it is the one who stopped.
Imagine a sky in which the weather changes by the minute. Clouds gather, darken, then burst; sunlight breaks through; wind tears at the edges. Through it all, the sky is not improved by blue nor diminished by storm. Likewise, The Heart of Stillness is not improved by calm or diminished by anxiety. It holds both without becoming either. It is not a mood to maintain or a belief to defend, not an argument against therapy, action, or justice, not a bypass around grief, not a system for ranking human beings. When we speak of The Heart of Stillness, we are not asking you to suppress your humanity. We are pointing to an intimacy that never leaves you, even when your humanity feels impossible.
The shape of this volume
This first book is an orientation: clear, human, spacious. It names the turbulence (Chapter I), honours the longing beneath it (Chapter II), remembers the ground we have overlooked (Chapter III), extends an invitation to Stillness (Chapter IV), clarifies presence (Chapter V), questions the story of separation (Chapter VI), lets the heart speak (Chapter VII), articulates the message for our time (Chapter VIII), and leaves us at the threshold of remembering (Chapter IX). Each chapter opens with a distilled epigraph, a tuning note in the form of an original poem, followed by prose that I hope moves at the pace of honesty. Dialogues appear where helpful, not as scripts to imitate, but as mirrors for our most faithful doubts. Aphorisms occasionally punctuate the text like cairns along a path: concise markers that hold the shape of a much wider view.
Here is one such doorway, in the form of a brief dialogue:
Questioner: I want to find Stillness. Where should I look?
Response: Before the looking begins, what knows the desire to look?
Questioner: Me.
Response: What is that “me” like in the instant before you describe it?
Questioner: …Quiet.
Response: That quiet is not the prize; it is the one who searches. Stay close.
We will return to this turning often: from the objects of attention to the knowing of them; from the weather to the sky.
On clarity, language, and science
Precision matters. We will be clear about terms: awareness, presence, identity, perception, and the habits that compose a world. But clarity without warmth becomes argument; warmth without clarity becomes haze. Our task is a union of heart and mind, so that what is understood is also felt, and what is felt is not left vague.
Where paradox is honest, we will honour it: The Heart of Stillness is nearer than near and cannot be approached, like trying to step away from your own body; it is prior to every experience and saturates every experience; it is empty of qualities and yet it feels like home. Such sentences can irritate if treated as puzzles. Read them instead as the mind’s best attempt to point to a simplicity it does not own.
Some will ask: is this psychology, metaphysics, neuroscience? The Heart of Stillness honours every discipline that clarifies human life. It also refuses to reduce intimacy to a single discipline. When we discuss perception, time, and identity, we will speak carefully, without borrowing prestige or rejecting it. The point is not to win a debate; the point is to be faithful to experience, to remember. Where research aligns with what is seen directly, wonderful. Where it does not, direct seeing remains the arbiter here.
On authority and companionship in reading
You will hear the resonance of many lineages here, yet the work refuses hierarchy. Authority, if it appears, should be recognised in your own experience. Where a sentence illuminates, it is your illumination, not the sentence’s. Where a paragraph fails, pass by lightly. The Heart of Stillness has no stake in being right; it is already the space in which right and wrong are noticed.
This is not a book to get through. It is a companion. Let it accompany you through ordinary times: a chapter before bed, perhaps; a paragraph on a train; a page that interrupts your certainty and asks for a walk. If a line, passage, or poem invites stillness, let the pause be the point of it all. If nothing stirs, close the book. You cannot miss what you are.
What changes, what does not
Lives change. Bodies age. Relationships begin and end. Weather shifts, inside and out. The recognition offered here is radical precisely because it refuses to be spectacular: it does not promise new scenery, only a new honesty with the seeing. When seeing is more honest, behaviour changes, often quietly. Kindness ceases to be an effortful ideal and starts to feel natural as defensiveness relaxes. Action grows cleaner because it serves what is true rather than an image of self.
We are not solving the self. We are noticing a prior intimacy that does not have a problem. From that noticing, many human problems remain and can be tended with new intelligence. But the core ache, I am incomplete and must become complete, begins to loosen, not by achievement, but by honesty with the fact that the one who seeks completion is already the openness in which seeking arises.
Stillness will not spare us from the human seasons. It does not cancel grief or fear; it reveals their home. When experience is no longer mistaken for identity, tenderness becomes possible in the thick of it.
The first turning
Notice the simple fact of being aware, prior to naming sights and sounds, just the obvious, unforced knowing of them. If the mind says, I can’t find it, ask: what knows the not-finding? If the mind says, This is nothing, notice that this “nothing” is precisely what allows everything to be. You need not achieve a state. You are simply ceasing, for a moment, to overlook the one who has always been present.
We do not enter The Heart of Stillness; it is the doorway we have never left.
From here we step into Chapter I: The Age of Noise, not to condemn our time but to understand the climate in which forgetting thrives and remembering begins.
—from The Heart of Stillness: Vol. I - A Message for a Turbulent Age
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